Saturday, November 19, 2011

Because of HIM

I’m a teacher trainee from Batu Lintang institute of teacher education. Although I’m majoring in Chinese, and I personally do not think my English is that good, still I have been attending City Harvest Church Kuching English services regularly this year since my lecturer invited me to come for one of the services. I began to join Alpha cell group led by Ps. Kelvin and Shawn and is now a part of alpha B cell group led by Liza after the cell group multiplied. 

Even though I was a Buddhist then and did not personally believe in God, I enjoyed the company of the cell group members as I hung out with them after church for lunch, went on outings and celebrated the birthdays of the cell group members together. Besides attending the English service and cell group, I also participated in various church activities for example donating blood and volunteering during the blood donation drive we had at Boulevard earlier this year, selling coupons and not only volunteering to mind a stall during the city care community service charity drive but also inviting my friends from the institute to come along and help out in this event. Recently, I also had the privilege to serve in the video ministry and helped to take photos during services and also during a visit to the old folks’ home with the elderly ministry. 

Through this all I have learnt so much about God and began to know Him more. As I have quite a few Christian friends, I began to use bible verses to encourage them when they are feeling sad and down. I felt that the verses were really inspiring. While I search for verses to encourage them, I too was encouraged by the verses I found. I became more thankful and grateful as I realized that God’s plans for us are to prosper us and not to harm us, to give us a hope and a future. Although sometimes things do not go the way I expect them to be, I learn to see this setbacks and disappointments from a different perspective – believing that God is in control and He wants to bless me no matter how terrible the situation may seem.

During the recent healing evangelical meeting by Rev. Peter Chu, I was serving in the video ministry when Rev. Peter did the altar call for salvation. I felt something calling me to the front, and I knew it was the Holy Spirit. I left the video camera and walked to the front. After coming to church and attending the various events for almost a year, that night I decided to declare that Jesus is my Lord and savior. 

I want to thank Ps. George and Ps. Joanna for always serving God so fervently. Through pastor’s preaching each week I have known so much about God. Amen! Also I want to thank Ps. Kelvin for giving me the opportunity to serve in church. He has involved me in so many things and I want to thank him for believing in me namely asking me to help out in the decorations in church for our 10th anniversary and also serving as usher for the first time that night under Ps. Zoe. Also to the alpha leaders, especially Shawn, Liza and Sing Jiat for always encouraging me and being there for me.

Most importantly, through it all, there was one special person who walked with me in my journey of getting to know Christ. Someone who refused to give up on me, who went out of her way to show how much she cared for me. She invited me to many Christian events and even though I rejected her invitation many many times, she did not give up on me. She was always there for me and somehow always knew the right thing to do and the right words to say. Esther, thank you for being you and for allowing God to work through you. It is not a coincidence that you came into my class for that replacement hour. Thank you for showing me how much God truly loves me! Thank you City Harvest Church, and thank you Father Lord!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Saturday, August 13, 2011

机会

机会就在你手中
看你自己怎么表现:)
呵呵~

Monday, July 4, 2011

aMa ..... 一路好走

今天当大家都在我未醒时,就出发到实习学校去了。
家里隔外的安静,只剩我一人在家,因为学校今天是特假,所以我出席了一个特别仪式。


我人生的突破?
也许吧.... 我自己都难以相信,我真的接下这工作,其实心里一直挣扎,很有罪恶感>.<

昨天我出席了--丧礼。
我前往丧家慰问。过世的是Jess的婆婆。
到丧家门口时,我看到一幅棺木,我向ama鞠躬后,便上前与Jess抱一抱。
她很坚强。还以微笑回礼感谢我的慰问。
棺木里可以清楚看到ama的遗容。Ama跟我上次见时,消瘦了很多,很多。
这是我人生第一次这么近距离的靠近棺木。以前看见棺木的恐惧的心情,但这次觉得ama显得很亲切,毕竟我是第一次这么近距离看遗体。

今天我出席了--葬礼。
载老师来到St. Joseph的丧礼祷告会(我也不晓得真正的名称是什么,呵呵)
教堂里显得特别严肃。
棺木摆放在教堂的正中央。
前座的人都穿上白衣。

----这是我第一次出席天主教的丧礼仪式----


我坐下时犯了一个错!
我把脚踏上一个板上。

啊~原来它是给信徒们祷告时跪下的地方,
但我却拿来放脚 >.<
不知者无罪,请求原谅:(













这葬礼真的跟我想象中的“与众不同” ==''
他们可以拍照也......

而且我接纳的工作就是要帮丧家拍整个过程。
天啊~ 如果给Uncle Sea知道一定骂得狗血淋头>.<

当棺木被抬上灵车时,Jess再次上前感谢我们的出席。
拥抱的那一刻,大家眼泪忍不住流下了。
拍拍他的肩膀,告诉她:“老师,要坚强哦!”

较后,我们跟着大队的车前往七里的天主教坟场。

棺木被推着到埋葬的地方,
整个过程我都拍下了。


棺木被葬下的那一刻,我转身了。
我内心在挣扎.....
其实以我家的风俗,这样的仪式不可以观看的。
不知怎么,我破了界..... 总觉得有罪恶感 >.<''

想着想着...
就当作是吸取不同仪式上 ,不同的经验吧:)









埋葬前,每人手上拿着一朵鲜花。



我拿了一朵白玫瑰,
较后抛向棺木。
我内心在向ama说:“一路好走....”












第一次参加葬礼
第一次这么近距离看遗体
第一次在葬礼拍照

这次的葬礼中,让我体会到亲情是如此的可贵。
时时刻刻都要记得你身边所爱的人和爱你的人。
别到分离的那一刻才懂得珍惜彼此。




回家洗澡的那一刻..... 更恐怖的事情发生了.....



我的手臂的颜色真的太棒了! 呵呵~

分享完毕!
记得你爱的人,和爱你的人,要懂得感恩哦^_^

Thursday, June 2, 2011

当当当 小叮当

久违了(又是这一句),呵呵!忙碌的生活又告一段落。实习给了我自信心,班长的职位点醒了我处事的方法。有时候真的是自己一气之下太冲动了。其实到头来想想,为什么不退让一步,大家心平气和的了解一些纠纷呢?祸是自己惹的,但在此事件中体会到了人生哲理---忍一时风平浪静,退一步海阔天空。嗯,还不错:P

第一次考试来不及作完,写到最后一刻手还在抖。不知道的考官还以为我写可兰经文=='' 求神拜佛希望不要重考 T.T

在家感觉真的很好,为什么总是这么迟回家?Hmmm...费解。家中有吃不完的新鲜水果,有不同的肉类让我煮个痛快。最开心还是刚回来的那一天,当我走进厨房,我看到一锅满满的,是满满,满满的鸡汤啊!感觉自己太幸福了,也是不幸的福来了。谁想看十五的月亮就可以往我的脸上看就行了。==''

最近我开始往教堂去。去教堂不代表我信耶稣了。我只能说,我想更认识这号人物。我相信每一个宗教都有好的一面,都是希望我们行善。在其中,我参加了他们的CG也就是说是cell group.偶尔他们会有交流会,分享他们的经验,趣事,等等的事件。我最感兴趣就是分享人生哲理。真的让我学习到一些而外的知识,怎样去面对这复杂的社会。从中,我也认识了一群来自个不同行业的朋友。他们都好亲切,对每个人都很关心。但,我不希望我踏进这一步会引起身边人的闲言闲语。我依然是佛教徒。今天初一,我去烧香了:)

嗯,糟糕,词穷... 后会有期啦XD

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

从对的角度想 ^_^


谢谢老师的开导....
谢谢阿美的开导....
谢谢写信息来责骂我(我自己觉得啦:P)的死党....

感觉上一篇文章都在说气话,都在发牢骚....
但,说了比较舒服了。憋在心里好难受哦....

感谢你们诚实的告诉我不对的地方,好让我有机会改变自己不对的做法。
老实讲,会对你说真心话的人有几个?真的不多,所以,我特别珍惜你们。
朋友,真的谢谢你们^_^

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

吾心寒,没经验,令人厌


知道这是一个不简单的工作,但总是要求自己做得做好。
有时候我真的不知道自己的决定是对还是错。
我真的很累.....
总觉得自己的决定都是错....

新的班服,品质不好~ 我难过,我也不想的。
看着印上的字,渐渐退色,所以听从意见。没事,就少穿了....
其他的班服,有的人没有带来、破旧、不好看..... 种种的建议和意见我都接收到。

他说我没有,他又说很热,而他又说还没洗......
我该听谁?
谁该来指引我?

那封信息让我知道我的办事能力,真的有待改善...................................
也要感谢那封信息,让我晓得............. 我真的无能 T.T